Always, Megs

Seasons come and go with the wind. This is an ever-changing world we live in, and I wouldn't have it any other way. My dreams often consume me, and I feel I can do little else but live in a world of tomorrows, of what's to come, of what may be.

I am trying harder and harder to focus on the here and now. To not live through other people's lives, but to consume myself with my own. I think it is so hard in this day and age to unplug, and therefore step back from comparing our lives to others. Though my dreams are all my own, I find myself too often comparing my life, to my own image of what my perfect life would be. I waste time, I waste energy, and I waste precious moments either worrying about the future, or comparing my days to images that I am bombarded with at all times.

So this season I am focusing on renewing energy. I am attempting to step back from things that suck up my energy: the internet and technology in general. I do not wish to waste my own days comparing myself to others. I want my time back. I want to daydream inside my own head, instead of daydreaming inside someone else's idea of what life should be.

There comes a time when you have to live your life day to day. When you are so consumed with worry and struggle that life becomes one big blur of the work ahead of you, and you forget to live in the moment. It is my mission this season to watch the road ahead, to follow the path that this life is taking me on, and to renew my energy and my own dreams. It's time to step back and focus on myself.

Happy Spring!

About 6 weeks ago I took the plunge and got my first tattoo! I've wanted this design for a very, very long time, and I could not be happier with how it turned out. Here' the story that goes with it:

‘World enough and time’ is quote from the poem To His Coy Mistress by Andrew Marvell. It is a poem that is huge in its comprehension of time, and space, and love. It sums up the idea that time is racing past, taking everything with it, which is a feeling I’ve had ever since I was a little girl. This poem is also featured in my favorite novel, The Time Traveler’s Wife by Audrey Niffenegger. It is used as a toast throughout the novel: ‘to world enough and time.’

The idea of time racing past, myself powerless to stop it, has plagued me for a while. When my aunt passed away a couple of years ago, I couldn’t shake the feeling that I would never have enough time. On the other hand, I kept telling myself, that life has given me a wonderful gift: the world and time, if I am brave enough to embrace it.

I love that this tattoo captures these two beliefs so perfectly. The first being that time will keep moving no matter what I do. That’s life. Then again, I’ve been given the most beautiful, glorious gift imaginable, the ability to see the world; and use the time I have here to love, go on adventures, seek new wonders, and experience all that this great world has to offer.

Now I have my own personal ‘carpe diem’ mantra with me forever.

It has been many a moon since I last wrote on this little blog of mine. I miss it terribly, but life has been so busy, and so full lately. I wanted to do a little update post since hopefully I will take the time to write and document my life again through this space. Since I last update this space I have:

• Ceased working as a nanny for my cute as a button little Hannah.
• Started Graduate School. I am on my way to being a licensed School Psychologist (one day at a time).
• I have been to Europe.
• I have gotten a tattoo.
• I have turned 24 - and then 25!
• I have gotten a puppy, who then turned into a doggy.
• I have read many books, seen many sunsets, and laughed a thousand times.
• I've seen a couple of new favourite movies.
• I've grown, I've changed, I've become.